I have wondered where all of this started .. when was it that i found myself so hopelessly in love that u became a need ... at which point did the casual flirting become a passion .. a passion that i had never felt before or have felt ever since ... i started dreaming ... dreams that were so real that i had alomost lived them .... everything reminded me of u ... the red pages in my diary ... an empty chair ... a song on the radio ... i started smiling for no reason ... my frnds thot sumthing was wrong wid me .. they didnt know that for the first time in my life ...everything seemed right ... i wanted to know everything about u ... the things u liked .. things u didnt ... what u thot ... what u hoped for .. what u aimed for ... what u wanted in life .... when i went away i had hopes for us ... i thot we cud be one .. we cud have a future together ... i didnt want to leave ... but i had to .... when i was away .. i wrote u a letter each day ... i cudnt send them but i wrote one each day ... abt what i felt , what i dreamed , what we wud be doing if only u were wid me .. i looked at the stars and felt close to u .. why i dont know .. but that became a symbol for me .. days were harder when i cudnt see any stars and i wud curse myself .. y did i have to think of the stars and not the sea .. the sea was there all the time .. but i dont know why .. but it was the stars .. and u were there for me .. when we spoke u had so much to tell me .. i just listened on .. listening to ur voice as u told me all that was happening in ur life .. i just listened knowing that these moments when u i cud hear ur voice were too precious for me to say anything .. we wud talk for hours but so much was left unsaid .. i wish i had those moments again and i cud tell u all i wanted to say to you ... i wud talk to the stars .. tell them what i cudnt tell u ... then ur calls stopped .... u changed ur no. too ... i didnt know what to do .. i wrote to u ... so many times ... u didnt write back .... my mind feared the worst but my heart wudnt believe it ... it still wanted to believe in us and our dreams ... so did i .. and so i kept writing to u .. and kept waiting for a reply ... it never came ...then i came back .. i went to ur house .... i wanted to suprise u ... but i didnt see any joy on ur face when u saw me ... it broke my heart but i still smiled ... u told me that u r getting engaged to ur ex-bf .... the guy hu had left u ... guess u learnt sumthing from him ... u love the one hu leaves u and leave the one hu loves u .... but that wont stop me from loving u ... its much to pure and strong in spirit to die by your actions ... i will love beacause i know my love is true ... people call it insanity .... i call it love