Misunderstood

I met her where the stars align,

In a world of swipes and distant signs,

A Brazilian fire, fierce and bright,

A soul that dances through the night.

Her spirit roams where few would dare,

A heart that craves the open air.

Intense, she loves with all she is,

No half-heart steps, no timid kiss,

Yet behind her smile, a story aches,

Of promises made and love that breaks,

She told me of dreams that won’t sit still,

Of broken chains, of a stubborn will,

You crave a partner, fierce and true,

Someone to dive off cliffs with you,

To match your storm, to ride your flight —

To burn with you deep into the night.

But me?

I’m still unsure, a maybe, a might,

Chasing a dream on the edges of night.

Not one to promise what can’t be kept,

Not one to rush where angels have stepped.

You’re intense — a beautiful blaze,

I’m the shadow of a flame.

Maybe I’m what you’re looking for,

Maybe I am just a bit more.

Am I the riddle you can’t quite solve,

The dance you crave but can’t involve,

The question shouted through your sleep,

Mistaken answers buried deep.

You — a wild heart from Amazon skies,

Me — a question behind quiet eyes.

I’m not a prize to simply win,

I’m the journey — the pull from within.

If you want me — chase me wild,

Not with promises, not with guile,

Submit to me completely and then

maybe, just maybe… I’ll let you in.

 I Love You

She says that I have never really loved her from my heart

I never said it so she doesn’t believe me .. I play my part

There's a pain in my gut that I'm feeling today,

for the love of my life feels further each day.

The sorrow is so much and the pain is so deep.

I've hurt her again' I can't even sleep.

as she slept there beside me, never knowing the truth,

I just smile and hope our love is bigger than that truth

I am sitting alone today…On a bench that’s made for two

I don’t let anyone sit there…. It’s a place only meant for you

Why do I hold on? I really don’t know why

I should move on yes? Maybe I’d rather die

Of all the emotions a person can feel,

Love is scariest and hardest to heal

I want you to know that I will never say

I love you … till my dying day

Chained by love..

Alone and cold ...
you just stand there
he walks away ..
you will him to stay

he knows you well ..
knows you'll be there
waiting for him...
waiting every single day

torn to pieces...
not knowing what to do
lied to again..
everybody's fool

wake up ...
before it is too late
dont surrender ..
to this endless wait

you make your pain ...
a mask to wear
keeping your feelings
...feelings at bay

so much is said ...
in your phony smile
so much ...
in the things you dont say

Niether threats ...
nor reasons prevail
in thier hearts ...
you plunge a knife

You give yourself ...
completely to him
losing much more ..
more than just a life

their numbing pain ...
you may never feel
their broken hearts ....
that may never heal

a life of lonliness -
filled with pain
surrounded by darkness-
overwhelmed with shame

like the dark sky...
they try not to cry
swallowed by your screams...
left with no dreams

life brings us
what we strive to get
the pain and anguish
you must forget

Without love ...
you are finally free
free from pain
free from lies
free from having tear filled eyes

A promise

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Life ... insatiated

a pool of blood on the floor

bloodied hands drag her away

he can see her heart cut out

... the smile on her face stays



there is nothing left inside her

he longs for a final kiss

she seems happy in her fate

if only he could find such bliss



she is what he wants to be

the woman has her way

he let his fears control him

he keep his love at bay



kill the woman, kill her name

kill yourself, kill your shame

live your life, live it well

but live only on your will

My life seems like an INVA note
trying to make sense of the MVE i chose
if all choose the same, then who am i
in a crowd of 570, i try to find
as i move from Rf along the market line
hoping that CAPM holds in my life
That all this matter for just one year
identically distributed in grades
in perfect competion without friction
forever in our trance equilibrium
But i know that reality bites
Markowitz didnt know much abt life
its not abt the variance or the means
but abt savouring our little dreams
it is most definately an arbitrage
between the course and my knowledge
i think of it as a forward trade
today's effort is tommorrow's grade
but it seems i have a zero coupon bill
discounted beyond a reasonable rate
i know i will never reach my face value
sorrowful.. i resign to my fate

try this instead he says
sticking to his olden days
times have a changed I say
fighting for a new way

"change is dangerous" he maintains
"i hate surprises somehow"
i try and fight in vain
change is the only way now

i know better, i have more years
i have more stripes he says
that i know and thats what i fear
stripes dont make a wiser man i say

you will see the folly of your way
and remember me when u reach my age
ill remember u alright i say
but when i have brought in the change

he tells me how to play my role
but why doesnt this go to his head
if wanted to listen to an asshole
i would have farted instead